Looking Forward: Don't push the river, it flows by itself

I had some time at work today, nothing new, so I decided to see when all my guy friends were getting home from their missions: Issac (August 3), Alex (September 21), Ben (October), Jake (February 22), Cody (January 13), Benji (March 17), Austin (March 10), Ben Graff (May 4), Bitters (July 7), Rylee (September 8), Dallin (August 25, 2013) :). That's when they left at least. Then I was looking around at facebook and saw one of Adam's friends from High School. She has like 4 kids now! This made me think, and I feel like I'm just rushing through life. I always talk about "when I'm married" or "once Dallin is home". It is such a waste of time. I have always held the attitude "when this happens, I'll be happy." Bull crap. Ha that's not how it works and I'm just realizing it now. I had a flash forward, if you will, to when Dallin gets home. And I'll be excited, but I don't have to think about it until it gets here. Wishing sooner is only making me unhappy now. I'm in college for 4 years of my entire life and I want to enjoy it...I'm not sure how haha but I want to live up this time in my life! I am so sick of waiting for things to happen instead of loving what's happening now! I have always planned, and looked to the future but rarely do I live in the present. So, that's my new goal. Because I am already going nuts thinking about Dallin being gone and it doesn't have to be like that at all. I think about how fast the guys from high school got back from their missions. They all have been out a year at least and I am impressed with how fast the time has gone. I feel like it has been a long time but it went faster than I expected haha despite my own belief Dallin will get home from a mission eventually. I will get married sometime, but until then I don't want to plan or think about it too much.

At work I was thinking and.....

Just here at work....thinking to myself "Goo, there is a whole world out there! Why are you wasting your time staring at this computer? You should go and make millions (it can't be that hard, you're smart) and do something fun!" This raised the question, "What would you do if you had unlimited amount of money, UNLIMITED!?" I decided, I would buy my own island with a big see through house (I would be alone so I would probably walk around without clothes on)just me and nature! Then I would build a roller coaster that goes from my house around the whole island!! The island would have a lot of natural wildlife! Like monkey's and elephants and penguins and and flamingo's and koala's and panda bears and horses and a bunch of others :) The house would be very well designed and have slides

and pillows everywhere! I would have a golf range in my backyard and it would be well shaded. I would have a dog living with me. And a jet so I could go home whenever I wanted...actually I would make a portal thing that takes me to the states in like 5 seconds.

Okay so that's my island, we'll call it Daloo of course.

Once Dallin gets off his mission

he can come stay there if he wants. Um okay so then with the other monies I would send a ton to 3rd world countries and build everyone there modest houses.

That will make a lot of jobs and their economies would explode with success!

Then I would buy all my friends and families houses of their choice and cars. Then I would help anyone with their tuition and BYU if they do a years work of humanitarian services. Then I would build houses for the homeless but in order to live in these houses they have to get a job working for my company or another one, they just need a job so they can provide for themselves. There would be these houses in every city in every state. My company would be....farming good natural healthy foods. So, then I would also pay for every missionary to serve a mission, if they need it. I would pay for their living quarters in each mission and let them use any money they want to help the people the are serving (all the people they are serving already have homes though). Welp, I can't think of anything else I would do with the money...oh I know! I would go...no I would have someone else go to all the brothels in the world and all the woman trafficking places and release all the women with ways to provide for themselves (job and house) and put all those icky men on the farm doing work for me. Also, I would go on the internet and erase all the porn on there. Just to extinguish one fire. Um....and that's all. Then I would go to my island and play with my dog and wait for Dallin to get back :)" ...so yeah, that's what I was thinking about during work!

The Girl Who Lived...

Welp, I had such a fun day yesterday! Work was just work, but after work I went into Southtowne Mall and met my mom. We had dinner together at Olive Garden (our favorite!) and then I got my outfit and crown for my photoshoot on Wednesday (this was the original reason I went down). It was nice just having a mom/daughter dinner. We talked a lot about Adam getting married. Haha I was going to pay but she offered and I am trying really hard to save money; after I decided I should've paid. I'll learn from it for next time. So, on my way home I stopped by Macey's for gel and milk. When I was getting out of my car I shut the door hard next to my leg and it cut me pretty good.


So I had a gash in my leg when Dallin came over. Obviously later that night I fixed it up with those band aids. You can't tell but I had to use the white ones to pull the skin together because it was opened up a lot more then what you see. At first though I was just going to leave it, but Dallin thought it needed something so we went to Smith's to look. We didn't find anything, but we played around and it was fun! I was feeling super hyper for some reason so I would start to dance in the isle and he would join. That kind of love is the best! Where you forget the world around you and just play with your best friend. :)We're just a couple of nerds! After that we decided randomly to go to Harry Potter 7 Part 2. Lucky for us there was a showing right when we got there and there were plenty of open spots! We sat down in the perfect seats! Right in the middle of everything. Then some super annoying teenagers sat right behind us. Right when they got there they started talking super loud and annoying. From past experience I knew we should move before it was obvious we were moving because of them. We moved to the back of the Movie Theater. Ha we both realized it probably looked like we just wanted a place to make out, but whatever we didn't have to hear those kids...most of the time. When it started getting serious those kids started laughing way loud. I thought Dallin was going to go punch this one bigger girl. Mm yep that's my biggest pet peeve, loud people in a movie theater! Grr...anyways so we were able to cuddle and stretch out because there weren't that many people there! It was nice :) I hope I will always remember what it was like to cuddle with him. On the way home we were looking at my open wound :) and Dallin said "it's probably going to leave a scar". "I don't really mind scars, they remind me of good times :) so I hope this gash scars so I can remember it was the day I went to see the last harry potter with Dallin!" Then he said "The Girl Who Lived" haha I love him :)

Ketchup

I am so excited to get started on blogging. I haven't ever done it so maybe someday I will be able to make it cool. I don't know why I started one. I have a lot a lot of time at work and needed something to do and this is like a journal. So, to catch you up to this moment in time (then other posts can be in more description). Um, I am just about to start my sophomore year at Brigham Young University. I am dating Dallin Chad Littlefield (the funniest/sexiest man alive)! He leaves on his mission to Ghana, Accra on August 25th we have been dating since...February 16, 2008 :) since then it's been on and off but I am completely in love with him. I am super scared to be single once he leaves so I am keeping up on flirting with Donovan from work. Haha pretty sure we're just playing :) so I am going to study Communications with an emphasis in Broadcast Journalism. I am applying in the fall and have no idea what I am doing but we'll play it by ear. My brother Adam is not married, he is 26 and dating a girl named Amy. We all love her and are waiting for Adam to get over his issues and ask her already! Pablo and Steph are going to graduate from Idaho in a week and then move to Virginia for good :( but I will go visit them all the time...maybe? haha Kim wrote off Johnston (her missionary) for Jesse Barton. They sound pretty serious and I will support them if they choose to get married....but I would like her to marry a returned missionary honestly. As for my parents, mom is relief society president and working as a secretary at the seminary and institute and happy as far as I know. My dad is just working and trying to get involved in his kids life in whatever way he can. I love my family and life. I stress about money mostly...but it'll all work out somehow amazingly it always does.