A Week To Go!

I wanted to clarify, I am ready! I get the question "So, are you ready?" all the time! It's to be expected though. Weddings are so so so exciting, and I've asked this question to plenty of people before. I am ready, and I have never felt better about Dallin and I. It's been interesting so far. We've already started sharing some things, and I have to learn how to share. It's like I'm back in preschool again! haha Our cute little apartment is coming together quite nicely. My WONDERFUL loving family helped me move in, and let's just say the people before us clearly didn't own any Clorox. Ha but I'm slowly getting it to where it needs to be.

So, what do you do in a small, OLD, and cold apartment? Well, me and Dallin are cuddling up next to our space heaters, and eating our spaghetti from the pot. It's so great! Next Saturday can't come fast enough! Also, it's surprisingly been a challenge for me to let go of "controlling" everything. It's so nice having someone else to help me do things! And Dallin is always willing and super dependable. The other day he got the car lubed. That was great, because I hate anything to do with cars. Sometimes, it's hard for me to let go of the initial drive to do everything myself. I first started to notice my control issues when he first got home and started to drive, and I would tell him how to drive (I've heard this is common among women), but I would get SEVERE anxiety when I couldn't control the car from the passengers side. I would say, "we're turning right" (way before the turn) just so that I could release some of the things in my head, but I quickly became an annoying back seat driver. I've fixed this by not watching the road when he is driving. If I do, I can't help but correct everything he does. The solution: don't watch. Another good thing about having Dallin around is having a handy man. We were doing our dishes after dinner one day, I set the rag on the counter, and he set's it in the middle of the sink. I didn't think it would totally air out in the middle of the sink, and setting it on the counter would "leave the dirt on the counter" as Dallin said, so he grabbed a screw driver and put a screw into one of the cupboards and hung the rag up. Perfect place! I imagine this is just the beginning of what marriage is going to be like. Creating and learning with someone else. Luckily, Dallin makes me laugh SO hard, I'm confident it will be pretty fun as we go. When it comes to the wedding I'm not nervous. I don't think I thought of everything that needs to be done, and I am in the middle of my final semester at BYU, but whether or not I have everything I ever dreamed of on that day is not important. I don't care if I have the Pinterest wedding I pinned. I hope on that day my only focus will be that I get to be with my best friend for eternity.